Thursday, March 31, 2011

Ugly Colour

We have a new exterior colour scheme that is hideous beyond description: off-white, bright orange and very dark brown.

Original colours were beigey-orange and a darker shade of the same colour as seen on the bock of flat on the right. Those were very pleasant colours that I believe most of us will not complain about.

Now that the new colour choice is final, we will have to return home to these morbid colours that clash, for the next 5 years at least, before another round of building refurbishment.

Hi, weird colour combination!
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Unable to Obey?

At this stage of AN's life, if it's normal, she just CANNOT obey.

Ask her to wash her hands, she'll have to either demand for someone who's busy to help her.

Ask her not to do something, she'll do it on purpose, or even if she has a valid reason, she'll choose to jump up a tantrum instead of speaking properly.

She asks at be carried, even when our hands are full. I understand when she said she doesn't like to walk down the steps of our multistorey carpark because she didn't wasn't to step on pee. There are people who pee there. With all these foreign workers lurking around, this place is no longer what it used be.

I wonder, should I make her listen to me, just to condition her to the world out there? Coz things do not happen according to her wishes in reality. But then, I struggle with her reaction when she insists on sticking to what she's comfortable with.

It's easier to spoil a child. But, by struggling with her so much, do I spoil something else, like her trust in me that I understand and listen? Will I spoil our relationship?

Is there a better way to discipline her without changing her for the worse?

Mum says she's a very well behaved girl and struggles like these are common. At the very least, she tries to correct herself the next time. I am aware that she does try but being 4 years old, it takes more reminders before she finally 'hears' my instructions. I think I need counselling. Much as I remind myself that I need patience with AN and that she's only 4, I can't help reacting to her non-conformance in the worst way a mum can react. Just before she left for school earlier, she insisted she wanted Mr Liow to wash her hands when I was about to help her. She knew I was still upset with her and didn't want me to do it. She feared me :( My blood boiled and I walked away, back to sleep (couldn't sleep. This post is the result of it). Time out is good, even for mums. Called her after I cooled off but Mr Liow said her nose was bleeding again and he would call me back. My heart ached :( She went to school, believing that her mummy doesn't love her anymore. And the bleeding nose... Thank God it wasn't nosebleed. It was just streaks of blood in her mucus. We should be needing a humidifier in their room. After discussing, we suspect it's the dry air in the room from the aircon, but we can't do without it. Made peace with her before she stepped into class. Why do I always end up hurting my baby girl.......!? Lord, please teach me patience and self control. Please protect them while I learn to tolerate their disobedience. Keep my mouth from words that tear down and me from actions that may hurt them, especially emotionally. I'm wondering if that bit of blood in her mucus will develop into full blown nose bleed again. Please Lord, keep her safe and healthy.
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Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Photo Time

Can't stop taking pictures of ER like we used to 'shoot' AN a lot. Babies are bundles of fun!

AN on the other hand is fun to chat with. She doesn't only dance a lot, she sings a lot! She can sing whatever Mr Liow plays in his car: Loving You, many others of Mr Liow's current favourite, Olivia Ong, and all of those cartoons she had ever watched (Toy Story, Pocahontas, Tangled, Little Mermaid etc).

He looks like a little monk
Sleepy Pooh Bear
He's starting to move in this position. He pushes himself back and supports his body with his knees and elbows and rocks a little before falling flat on his belly again. Reminds me of AN who started to rock herself on fours before she finally crawls!
Sleepy boy in my sling
The mirror-images
The 'suitcase' that AN was holding in the picture belonged to my dad. It was my dad's school bag when he attended Primary School and should be at least 55 years old already! My dad is so good at keeping things that he still has the key to this suitcase in his key ring!

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Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Randomness

Days just keep getting busier. ER is on semi-solids now and because he's still undergoing training, it means he's not eating much, even if he swallows any of his cereals. I try feed him a second 'meal' each day if I can, just so he can get used to feeling grainy food on his tongue sooner.

Lots more of washing to do: extra utensils, bowls, bibs and towels.

Plus, I bring ER to my parents' place after showering him on most weekdays, just in time for lunch mum makes before I go fetch the jie jie.

All that after mopping the whole house (or if I hv extra time, squeeze in some laundry, furniture dusting, and whatever else).

Have no idea why I love to blog so much that the moment I get to hold my phone while the kids nap/sleep, I start writing.

But each time I read my posts after publishing them, I notice lots of error: Spelling error, wrong choice of word, typo error, sentences that either do not make sense or repeat.

Got to serve my feverish princess water now. She's starting to cough (AGAIN!!! Oh no!). When will this stop...? She's falling sick so much now she's starting to enjoy taking medicines. Sigh..

Heart Attack

Mr Liow's uncle passed away last night. We do not have much info yet coz according to Mr Liow, his aunt was too distraught to say much.

He happens to still be on childcare leave today and can go offer some help.

Life is fragile..we met just 3 weeks ago at his cousin's wedding and travelled back to Singapore after that in separate cars.

And all of a sudden, he's gone...
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Monday, March 28, 2011

A Day After

AN is still having fever :( it's been more than a day and her fever still seems a little on the high side.

I had been giving her paracetamol every 6 hourly since morning, ending with Ibuprofen for the night. Her temperature ranged from 37.1°c at is lowest, to 39.4°c just 15mins ago.

Why is it still so high?

She's hiding under the blanky now, telling me she feels "cold in my body but hot on my face".

Behaviour-wise, she was like any other day, just sleepy-er.

Lord, please keep her safe. Please make her virus go away. I do want to pray for the fever to leave but I know it's there for a purpose. Lord, please let the fever do what it was here for, and leave soon with the bad virus.
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Amoled Screen, Nice.

Am finding reasons to be happy with my Galaxy Beam. It's not a silly phone, but it can be sooo laggy at times I feel like banging it back to life again.

Was reading my blog with my old pal, iPod touch II and wondering if it's good or bad news that there's a very very notable difference in the screens of the 2 devices: the amoled screen of my Beam shows such vibrant colours that when I see the green colour (in particular) on my blog with my iPod touch now, I feel somewhat uncomfortable. The green here looks washed out compared to that on my beam.

But the iPod touch is so super responsive my android feels .... like a preschooler who gets stuck when staring at numbers greater than 20..

But my android is unique.. I have spent many nights while nursing the then-newborn ER customizing it (androids are customizable) and it's almost impossible to find another beam that's identical.

Why am I comparing Apple and Android now when I have a 4 year old with high fever whom I'm suppsednto he caring for? I also don't know. Am just suddenly hoping I can find something with Apple's responsiveness combined with Android's screen and flexibility...how nice. Hehe. That will give blogging mummies who rely on smartphones to update friends and readers on what's going on each day, additional options to include media without lagging. Hehe.

BAck from Hospital

By 5 am this morning when I took her temperature again, she was 39.7C!!

That's is HOT!

Woke MR Liow up and we took her to Mt A. Fever is not uncommon but I'm not taking chances with fever THAT high. Another 0.3C and she'll hit 40C.

She woke up happily though. While Mr Liow was away to get his car, she somehow got woken up by the commotion outside her room as we hurried around preparing. She was smiley and talked about going to the hospital. Thank God the hospital is not a scary place for her. In fact, she appeared quite excited that we were going there so she could see a doctor. I know, extraordinary.

Her fever went down to 38.7C when we reached. The last dose of Ibuprofen was at 9pm last night.

Dr inspected her and found nothing serious. Lungs were clear, tummy was soft (no cramping), ears and nose were clear as well (except for the dried up blood stain from her nose bleed earlier). She's coughing a wee bit though.

Dr explained that the nose bleed is nothing to worry about, especially since hers stopped after a couple of minutes. It's not the complicated type of nose bleed (that still drips after 15mins and numerous attempts to stop it). He said it was very likely due to pressure that burst the fine vessels in there, likely due to the cough (but the cough just started and it was so mild as of now). It could also be from her picking her nose (bad hobby!).

We asked again to be assured that it's nothing big deal, like leukemia. Dr said it's not THAT sort of bleeding. She's ok, he said. And so we breathed better.

She's still feverish. The fever just won't go away. She woke Mr Liow up at 8am and Mr Liow took her temperature. She was 37.1C (her last Ibuprofen was at 6.06am in the hospital) but as I'm typing this now, she's past 38C again.

Can't give her Ibuprofen again till 6 hours later but I think I'll just give her paracetamol (even if it only lowers her temperature a little), because fever is good!! It just bothers me to see the temperature  past 38.5C). According to the nurse, Ibuprofen has side effects that cause pains in the stomach and even cases of gastric bleeding from long term usage. Sounds scary, and my baby doesn't need to go through that just to have her fever relieved.

And according to both her and the doctor, paracetamol can be given 1-4 hrs after Ibuprofen..but should I? hmm....I'll probably wait till noon to give that to her. She's behaving like her usual self, singing her own madeup songs loudly, asking to be read to, and even danced with Mr Liow for their Wii game.

Thank God. And we're praying the fever will go down on its own without much medicating, along with whatever virus or infection.
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Sunday, March 27, 2011

Nose Bleeding Again

We were at Ting's place this afternoon when AN started bleeding from the nose while playing with the kids.

I got freaked out this time coz it was quite a lot of blood and there was no logical reason for the bleed (unlike the previous time when she could have hurt her nasal passage or whatever-you-call-that from blowing her nose).

And she's having fever now at 38.7°c with no other symptoms.

She fell back and hit her head hard last night. Could the nose bleed be due to the fall?

Something on the internet said leukaemia. Doesn't assure me a bit.

Am going to bring her to Kinderclinic if her fever persists by tomorrow morning.

Her appetite dipped today and I made her feel bad on purpose, as a punishment for rejecting her food. Didn't occur to me that she could be unwell :(

Am always doing things that I end up regretting...

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Homecooked with Love

AN started asking to buy a birthday cake last evening. She had never been interested in cakes but kept nagging about it. I thought she was trying to be difficult and ignored her after telling her off.

Last night while lying in bed, the events of the day all linked up and I got what was going on.

Mum must have wanted to bring AN to Compass Point to get me a cake. And AN wanted the cake, not for herself!

True enough, she informed me that she will bring AN home from school today after a little shopping. I asked to join them but she insisted I should rest more while AN is away. Fine.

As my 1st surprise, Mum came to make me "Mee Sua" this morning, a Chinese tradition during birthdays. She told me she has to go pay some bills after I'm done eating.

I asked if she was going to get me a cake and she glared at me. Haha!

Hit the nail!

She said she told AN that they will go get me a cake after school today when I told her AN made noise over getting a cake last evening.

To think I was actually upset with AN! Bad bad mummy!

She did not defend herself when I asked her why she had to ask for the wrong things at the wrong time, and insisted on having a cake when she doesn't eat one.

Mum said she asked AN to keep it a secret from me.

So, mum's out of my place now, even though she maintained that she has to go pay bills by this afternoon.

Updated 27 Mar:
They did return with cakes for me. Mum chose a small, strawberry pudding-like cake that AN insisted I wouldn't like. She got mum to buy another one that she was sure I'd like. The one she chose had a princess picture.

I chose mum's coz I do prefer puddings. AN wasn't disappointed though. She got to have that princess cake.

Mum bought some nonya kueh too.

Mr liow was on course and returned home earlier.

It must be that I'm getting old. I didn't even remember my birthday was approaching till I received my first birthday greeting in FB.

And the day is over, just like any other day.

But I never fail to be thankful that I get to spend my special days with people I love.

Here are some pictures:

My cake


AN's cake

My girl and I

Our family, without ER

Mum and I (I look like her!)

AN posing with 'OUR' cakes

Homecooked Mee Sua


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Thursday, March 24, 2011

Freedom to Rant

To be fair, even though I've got so much against his mum, Mr Liow allows me to rant it on my blog without expecting me to use kind words. I guess, he's just as nice to me as he is to her. Maybe I really should not expect too much.

I mean, where else can I rant? In front of her? Or at her?.

Maybe things are not that bad afterall.

I love my husband. And he's not perfect. Neither am I.

And hey! That's a match!

(^____^)

Sigh...

All in a Day (backdate to 23rd March, Wednesday)

6 Month Old Checkup
It's time for ER's 6 mth old jab!

Worried that I may forget his health booklet, I took it out and placed it on the study table this morning. Minutes later, while clearing the table of mess, I put the health booklet back. -_____-"

The result of it was, me forgetting to bring it for his vaccination.

There must be a corrupted sector in my brain memory.

Back to his jabs.

He got his 'cocktail' of 6-in-1 and Pneumococcal in 2 separate jabs on separate thighs, cried for 3 secs when Dr pierced his skin with the cocktail and 10 secs for the Pneumococcal as Dr Terrence Tan said he would.

Before the jabs, ER was checked if he met his developmental milestones. Thank God he's growing normally :)

He has what looks like a bruised spot beside his left eye which I had thought was just a bruise that will go away but its been weeks and it's still there. We asked Dr Tan and he said it could be either a pigment or mole. According to him, pigments may start surfacing months after birth. :(

We're keeping our fingers crossed that it's a stubborn bruise that will go away but also acknowledging the high possibility coz both Mr Liow and his dad have lots of moles on them. Just thankful that AN is spotless though and praying hard she stays this way.

Once done, he was given the rotavirus orally. This time, he swallowed everything unlike the first time when quite a portion of the liquid came out.

Not bad. No fever this time, thank God.

Paying Respect
It's a day before my FIL passed away on 24th Mar 2006. It seems my birthdays tend to be quite eventful after we got married.

First, my FIL left us 1 birthday after Mr Liow and I wedded (and 1 day before my b'day. Am I a jinx or what?) Then in 2007, I almost had to share the same birthdate as AN (who was only 34 weeks matured then). I spent my birthday that year, strapped to the CTG in Mt.A.

It was AN's first time in a temple. She innocently asked: "Whose house is this? It's so big!" Told her it's a place of worship for people who pray to different gods and we were there to visit her "yeye".

This time, we didn't have to hold joss sticks. Have I mentioned that I've renounced ancestral worshiping since I was in Sec 2 and have never held any tools of worship to anyone (not even to my grandma whom I so loved...) other than my Jesus.

I was made to, very very grudgingly (not because I do not respect my FIL. In fact, I would have, because I respected him as a father). But the Lord made me see that if my heart is right with Him, holding a joss stick is as simple as passing by a temple.

It's not so much of holding a joss stick that bothered me. It's being made to do it without being given the choice to. If she had not DECIDED for me that "it's ok because you are not praying to other gods" giving no minimum respect to my values, I'd still have paid respect with what I had to, for the sake of Mr Liow, and I'd have done it more willingly. I do all that I did for him even though I didn't like it. I wonder if he ever noticed them and if he did, whether he appreciates what I do, or was it just expected of me. Or does he see that I'm the one who is always unwilling to give in to the empress, even if I do because I never had a choice?

Nevermind. It doesn't bother me anymore. The last time he asked me what I was trying to imply, this last bit died too, along with the respect for her that died when she came to rule our lives, even when we escaped thousands of miles from her.

I will shut up, I will not show the kids how much I ha.... I will not be able to teach them forgiveness because if there is one thing the Lord wants from me, it's to let go of this. I can't let go because she keeps coming backwith behaviours that haunt me. I can't forgive just like she gets her way the whole time. Bondage, and how do I break free? I'm not interested to try, maybe.

I've not paid respect to my own grandma since she passed on. And I loved her more than I had loved anyone else then. More than I loved my parents.

Must make it a point to bring Mr Liow and the kids to pay respect to her.

Toys
After leaving the temple, we sent his mum and niece back to his sister's place, and then went to United Square. We had $500 worth of vouchers from our Delphin purchase and for the 3rd time, we went to the store to see what we can spend those vouchers on. Nothing much really that we are allowed to spend the vouchers on, unless we want to pay by cash (but we do not).

Ended up lugging 3 big bags of toys home. Those toys are so ridiculously priced that if not for those vouchers, we wouldn't have even stepped into the store. hehe. I think they actually target the ang mo expats who can spend as they wish.

I'm looking forward to weekends but at the same time, for some reasons, I am not. I have nothing much to look forward to now. What a life.
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So Weird

Friend A's dad is looking for Friend B's dad. The dads, according to A, have lost contact for a long time but A's dad wants to look for his friend again.

A knows B but B doesn't know A, so I got roped in to help.

A asked for B's dad's contact. I didn't suppose B's dad will give his number to just anyone who claims to know him. I asked A for her dad's number, copied and pasted the number for B's dad.

Some time later, B informed that the number A gave was unavailable, so I approached A again, this time asking her to add B on Facebook after suggesting to B what I thought might be more effective and B was ok with it.

Sigh... Guess what A's reply was?

"Ask her to add me la."

How is B going to add you when she doesn't even know you, not by name, not by picture, not even if you are right before her eyes?

I can give her your name, which I did so that she can accept your friend request but for her to look for you in FB, she will not even know if she's adding the right person. Coz she doesn't know you.

This is my weird friend, A.

I'm expecting her to reply: "why don't YOU (referring to me) link her to my profile so she will know who I am and add me from there."

I hope I'm wrong.

Why insist on going in circles when all you have to do is, step out of the loop? Won't it be more effective for her to contact B on her own?

Haiyo.....
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Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Maen Back to Normal

Taken last Sat, this picture captured how her ear flap looks when it's normal.

Congrats Maen, you do not need the e-collar anymore!
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When she was just a little girl

AN at 27th months old when Mr Liow was at work one evening




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Baileys at Pinetop

This was taken in Jan last year when Baileys got to join our holiday at Pinetop. His first (and my second) snow encounter!

Just noticed those tear stains. They, too, had allergic reactions to pollens during fall I guess. Both B and M started since Thanksgiving 2009 and I could never clean those stains away.

That stains gradually disappeared since our return to Sgp.
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I'm Prettiest

I've been told by some that I resemble Tanya Chua.

Just a while ago, she was on TV. I asked AN who, between Tanya and I, she thought is prettier.

She confidently replied: "I am prettier."

Thought she misunderstood my question, so I asked her again.

This time her answer came loud and clear, and still as confident: "I am prettier."

Ok, we got it.
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Monday, March 21, 2011

Volleyball Boy


Mr Liow training his descendant. He said he doesn't want AN to play volleyball in the sexy volleyball shorts in future. Boy, ok. Because boys don't wear sexy volleyball shorts. What logic? hmm.. hehe.

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What? Sick Again?

AN is having a temperature of 37.7°c, low grade but a fever no less.

It's her 4th since CNY.

Arghhhhh.....what's she down with this time?
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Happy Boy

ER and what he does best
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Newly Bald

ER had his first haircut this afternoon at 6 months. He kept very still and it was over in no time. Curious little boy even grabbed the stylist's hand with the shaver as she inspected his head after she thought she was done shaving him.

Without his hair, he is no less adorable! I'm so in love with him.

And the jie jie is a very caring sister despite being really stubborn lately. She takes her duties of watching over ER very seriously. Before she leaves his side, she will loudly inform us so that someone can come take over her duty of making sure he doesn't roll off the bed.

She woke up sobbing when she found me missing after her afternoon nap yesterday. Her sobbing woke ER who started crying as well. By the time I got into the room, both kids were crying.

BUT

AN was patting ER to comfort him as she sobbed away. As she explained after cooling off: "I'm sorry I woke Ethan up. So I pat him back to sleep."

Despite struggling to deal with tantrums (only AN's as of now), having them is my blessing.
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Less is More

The lesser the expectation, the lesser the disappointment. This, I've grasped and things now work out.

Next, I need to learn to speak up less. The lesser I speak up, the lesser the possibility of an interrogation.
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Sunday, March 20, 2011

How Should I React? (warning: contains negativity, sacarstism)

MIL was back from her holidays and Mr Liow went to fetch her.

Since we would be at the airport, dinner there will be nice (we always enjoyed relaxing at the airport). She sms-ed him that her flight would touch down at Terminal 2, so we had dinner there.

I can't stand people who had been parents themselves or even grandparents now, who expect parents with young kids or babies to be responsive IMMEDIATELY. DID SHE EXPECTED US TO STANDBY OUR PHONES?

I was feeding AN, Mr Liow attending to ER. She called and couldn't get us. Mr Liow asked me to return her call and I regretted it after obeying him. Coz when she answered it, her first reaction was: "I CALLED ALL OF YOU AND NONE OF YOU PICKED UP YOUR CALLS! WHAT ARE YOU HOLDING MOBILE PHONES FOR!?"

Yes, she shouted at me over the phone. ^&*#(@!%$*(!@(&#%)&!$(@&%&!(#^

Come on! There were times she missed our calls but we understood that she was probably busy! Will her Genting shares nose-dive if she waits a little before calling again?? But no, she will NOT understand that we may have been busy with the kids when she calls. She the Empress, you know?

What sickening attitude. She is a grandma already but behaves so ill-bred.

So, we finally realised she touched down at Terminal 3 instead. But she wanted to get liquor from duty-free, so we did not have to take flight or speed there. She'll be shopping before waiting to collect her luggage.

This reminded me of once-upon-a-time again:
Mr Liow offered to fetch my parents from airport. They had returned from Australia after attending Andy's graduation. We were at my SIL's hm and when it was time to go, she said: "Go so early for what? They still need to get their luggages and do some shopping." For her info and unlike her, my parents will not shop because they will not want us to wait. And my parents will be so grateful whenever Mr Liow goes pick them. The last thing they will do is get upset if we appear later than they expect."

MIL went on to suggest: "You go later la! Then wait for them outside (at the pickup point). Ask them to come out so you do not need to park."

It sounded logical although the way she put is was super offending. She likes to speak with a "don't you guys use your brains?" tone during times like these when we prefers to do things the 'illogical' way, like going to the airport for lunch before picking my parents up at the same time. And yes, Mr Liow didn't use his brains again this time, for agreeing to go pick the ungrateful mum up. He's filial and she really ought to be thankful coz she really doesn't deserve Mr Liow. I'd be richer than the world's richest if ER is as forbearing as Mr Liow should I become so badly behaved when I grow old.

That was what we did with my parents and you can imagine how grateful they were. I mean, who wouldn't? You would if someone comes pick you up at the airport and drives you home, wouldn't you??

But once again, no.

Mr Liow suggested MIL wait for us at the arrival pickup point (I suggested that, because SHE suggested that to us the last time and it made sense). She went on to ask why we were not parking the car, blah blah blah, and Mr Liow explained. Did he need to? Haven't she already had it all thought out for my parents the last time?

So, she did. Mr Liow told her to just go all the way outside of the arrival hall and there the pickup point should be. That's how Terminal 1 and 2 works, isn't it?

She followed his instructions and waited at the taxi stand -______-"

We made 3 rounds but found no taxi stand, and when we finally did, we realised it was a "No-Entry" zone for vehicles other than cabs and coaches.

Mr Liow called her again to ask her to take the lift down a level where the pickup point at Terminal 3 is.

She blamed Mr Liow for telling her to go "all the way outside". The thing is, if she used her brains like she enjoys telling people to, she would have noticed that ONLY TAXIS APPEARED, NO CARS! Oh, she also should start using her eyes, besides her brains. How on earth should we know that Terminal 3 is different from 1 and 2 till we get there for the first time??????

She finally appeared, grouchy that "we made her wait". The first thing she said when she opened the car door was not "I missed you" to the kids, or "Thanks for picking me up", or anything nice, grateful or at least, sensible. She actually complained: "You guys took so long! Do you know how angry I was after waiting for so long??" And it was after 15mins of circling around to look for her.

In fact, over the phone when Mr Liow asked her for her exact location, she was already taking it out on him for making her wait. Ingrate.

Once she got on the car, she called Mr Liow's sis and shouted at her for not picking up her call. Same comment she made: "USE A MOBILE PHONE FOR WHAT?? YOU DON'T PICK UP CALLS!"

*roll eyes*

She then shouted at his sister for giving her wrong information that her flight would touch down at Terminal 2. I din know what his sister said over at the other end but it shut her up. Makes me wonder if she was the one who looked wrongly instead!! But when the empress makes a mistake, so it's ok.

The whole 5-10 mins conversation was a torture. Me and the kids were stuck in the car, listening to her shout at Mr Liow's sis. I wish I could take the kids out so they need not learn how to speak nasty words.

Really, someday, AN will learn to be rude and unreasonable. Just some day, ER too. With her teaching them to, by example.

You know, dear mum of my hubby, you really should be saying "thank you" to my hubby for picking you up. Just simply for picking you up. He needed not to, since we have already expected you to not know how to behave properly. But you, as a mother yourself, as a grandma, in the presence of young children, do not know how to behave!

That day you left your mobilephone in our house after he sent you to the MRT station (and to think he stupidly offered to send you ALL the way to SIL's home at Cambridge) and he had to come home before realising that he had to go back to deliver your phone to you, you should have said "thank you" to him too!

The process went like this:
1. You called me to tell me that you left your phone at my place.
2. Mr Liow was uncontactable because he did not bring his phone with him when he left with her.
3. He drove home, parked his car at level 3, walked down, walked a distance to our block, took a lift up and I told him: "Your mum forgot her phone. She said she will be waiting for you where you dropped her, to bring the phone to her."
4. I took the kids and went with him (just to take the kids for a ride). No, I did not do makeup or rummage through their wardrobe to dress them up to the nines. It was just a ride.
5. We walked the same distance back to the carpark but waited at level 1 while Mr Liow went back up 3 levels to get his car.
6. He drove to where he left her.
7. SHE LOOKED VERY VERY ANGRY, SCOLDED HIM FOR TAKING SO LONG TO BRING HER PHONE BACK, AND SLAMMED THE DOOR AT HIM WITHOUT A WORD OF THANKS.

Mr Liow couldn't take it and called her on her mobile to reason with her. He had to get home before he knew her phone was at our place. she knew he did not have his phone with him too, because she called it and I answered it from HOMe (did she use her brains? Or did she only expect others to be using theirs??). Even if he did bring his phone, he would have to come home to get her phone before driving it back to her.

It was a mere 15-20 mins wait, not SO LONG like she complained. Did she expect Mr Liow to fly her phone to her in an apache parked right outside our HDB flat?? Did she not realise that it was quite a walk from the carpark to our home and back? She obviously wouldn't have thought that Mr Liow had to park his car at level 3.

Where do I begin looking for positive feelings towards her? Each time we spend time with her, it's purely keeping silent and putting up with her nonsense.

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Friday, March 18, 2011

ER's First Encounter with FOOD!

Enough of procrastinating (my bad..it took me a few weeks of saying "it's time to feed the little boy FOOD!" before I actually got around to doing it)..

AN has no school today, so I thought I could start him on his cereals today, just so that AN can catch a glimpse of herself on her first taste of cereals too.

Also, I've called up some formula milk companies (Abbott, Dumex and Friso) to request for samples. Partly to make his cereals with and see how he's accepting them, also as a backup because this time, I did not pump much B-Milk to store in the freezer. 

I suppose he's going to be weaned off earlier than AN (who's still nursing as part of 'tea-time').

Building Refurbishment

Finally a new colour after 7 years

:)
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Thursday, March 17, 2011

What I Miss that's Not Found in My To-Be 4 Years Old

I missed the baby-ish chuckling, her limited knowledge of descriptive words thus those really cute ways of making her point.

I missed those times when she would stare blankly at us when she didn't know hw to answer us. I missed being surprised by new things she did and new words she learnt.

She is smarter now, almost 4 years old. She knows exactly what she wants and if we do not agree, she will start reasoning with us.

If I can choose a part of her life to re-live, I'd love to go back to spend time with her at 2 years old. No doubt, terrible 2 is deserving of its award, but she was so adorable, and cooperative, and innocent whenever "terrible" was at rest.

Am thankful I get to be reminded of AN when she was a baby when I spend time watching ER grow.

Babies are cute. Enjoy them before they grow up.
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Almost Back To Normal

Maen's ears are recovering well. We all know how much they hate the e-collar (not to be confused with the Electric-Collar) but the 'Cone' does a lot to prevent them from scratching what they should not be scratching.

Bear with it Maen. By the end of this week, once the scars disappear completely, you'll get to touch your neck and behind the ears again.
Moist and raw area dried and almost totally healed

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Dancing Adrielle

She's almost 4 years old. It's time we put her through an enrichment class. She chose to take up dancing lessons. We'll source for a class in time to come (have to stop procrastinating).

Music makes her move!

At 12 months

At 14 months

At 20 months

At 21 months

At 24 months

At 27 months

At 37 months

At 2 months to 4 years old

Recovering

Thank God Maen's right ear flap is recovering well. The infected area is reducing and drying up.

My Nursing Babies

Time is like very fine sand. It slips through your fingers no matter how hard you try to hold it back.

It didn't feel so long ago when ER was a newborn. Now he's old enough to learn how eat like us, starting from very mushy food.

And deja vu! Those pictures, I've seen them before! Is this not baby AN? Let me link us back to that old post of AN when, and if I hv time to use the desktop.


Edited: Didn't find the link but found the picture on my external HD.


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My Human Girl

AN enjoying the last hour before bedtime doing some colouring and looking up once in a while to see what we're watching on TV.

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Monday, March 14, 2011

SPCA

Some in the doggie community are seriously narrow-minded, so bad that they leave no room for mistakes. It's almost like they worship dogs! Whoever fall short of their past promises to their K9s, that group of doggie community will act immediately to ensure you will never have peace again, no matter how hard you try to shake them off.

Oh.My.Goodness. Are these people robots or what?

I received an email from SPCA.

Surprised?

I was.

Sigh.

They received feedback from "concerned individuals" but the email was "not sent to address concerns of abuse or matters of that sort".

It was thankfully an offer of help to rehome BM but I had to read it 5 times, carefully, so that I can be sure of what I'm reading.

Reading the email for the first time, I thought it was a warning that I could face penalties, for not bathing them enough. Besides the offer of posting BM's details on SPCA's notice board and suggestions of various avenues to find help rehoming them, there was also mention of the bath thingy (AGAIN). And the mail ended with "Cruelty to animals is a crime", going on to mention that if found guilty, one may face imprisonment of up to 12 months, $10K or both.

Now, the moral of the story is, never be honest and share your life story publicly. If possible, paint the most perfect scenario. Coax the world into believing that you are the most perfect human, with perfectly behaving kids and never have to struggle with adjustments, and even your k9s behave like they perfectly understand how to blend in perfectly with changes in your life. And it's purely happiness in everyday of your perfect life! How beautiful my life will be forever!

Arghhhhh...but it is NOT!

I'm so glad this time, I get to personally give out this new link and readers are people I welcome and will be welcoming. I wonder if any ticks managed to crawl in during that window period of my stupidity (of revealing my address for the few hours, in my old blog).

Very important to note: there are some of you who did follow me with that link I posted there. Please DO NOT associate yourselves with the ticks I mentioned earlier ok? I'd like to think that you guys are MEANT TO BE HERE.

:)

As for BM, maybe it's time I stop sharing about them. I don't know. This is....consuming. Just one post, the first time they hv not had been showered for 4 months which passed in the blink of an eye and things start getting out of hand. Werent they sent for grooming as soon as I remembered? Weren't they brushed? Did they not have their nails trimmed and ears cleaned? Did they not get fed or water to drink?

what's the hooha over this bath issue......?

:(

Part of Us

They grow up too fast!
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Sleeping Together

That flying kick didn't wake the boy!
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Coincidence



This photo was taken before we set off on our Taiwan trip in 1994, the one during which my infatuation with Mr Liow began.

Mum was so sweet. She knew the significance of this photo and had it printed onto a cup for my birthday even before Mr Liow and I started going out.

:)

And guess what? This was taken exactly 10 years before our wedding day on 18 Dec 2004.

Can you find us (or maybe even yourself or someone you know) in there?

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Sunday, March 13, 2011

Maen and Her Right Ear

That's the site of infection. 
from left: Iodine-Alcohol-Saline mix to be dripped 0.6 mls into her ears for cleansing,  Bacidin to clean ear flap,  Baneocin ointment for ear flap and lastly Novaflex Eye Drops (also for ears) to be dripped into the ear canal
Maen looking less than happy in her E-collar

She's so clumsy in it! hehe. Gave them dental chews and she wasn't able to chew on it (she wasn't able to hold and chew it with the collar). And when asked to go sleep, she hopped onto her own bed but hit the side and got a shock. She made a few turns before sleeping but the collar scratched our wall as she did and she appeared a little frustrated. Walking around with that big cone on her neck made her bump into anything in her way: she walked past MR Liow and scratched his back, walked past AN and brushed her stuff onto the floor from our low coffee table, shook her head and scared the human girl and she couldn't even rub herself on the side of our sofa. She must in terrible agony. hehe.

Saturday, March 12, 2011

Back From Vet

It's bacteria infection. Nothing serious and non contagious. Vet says it's common. Hmm. First occurence, so I can't tell how "common" it's supposed to be.

"Common" sounds assuring. At least it's not life threatening and she's not going to lose her sense of hearing.

No antibiotics this time, but lots of topical medications plus alcohol-mix cleanser.

No more sleeping in late. Hehe. No more excuse for a longer morning nap.
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ER on the Booster

As part of our preparation for his upgrade to semi-solids, I started putting him on the booster seat. He's still wobbly, so we need to prop him up with pillows. AN started sitting on the walker at 4 months (nope, she never got to walk in it because it's not an ideal training tool for babies to learn to walk in although most of us in my generation took our first steps in our walkers, right?). In fact, AN got to see more of the world at an earlier age than ER! By now, ER is still lying down most of the time (except when we are out of the house). HE needs to see more of the world, starting from home!

Here he is on the booster seat.

Part of our M'sia Trip

We went to M'sia to attend Mr Liow's cousin's wedding. AN loves princesses and brides as a result because she thinks brides are princesses in reality.

Mr Liow with his cousin
AN wanted a picture with the bride but was too shy to have one taken without me.. 
AN said she looks better with her palms on her face. Ok, I'll help her. See me receding hairline?
AN's new friend, Yu Xuan. She loves this long distance grand cousin's company! It's a pity we did not have much time together :(
Playing hide and seek

The Sick-s

Haven't expected myself to be having this little time to sit in front of the computer!

Mum took AN out coz Mr Liow has to work back in the office despite today being Saturday (no choice coz he's rushing something). Mum actually said she had something on today when I called last night, asking if I could go over to their place this morning with the kids. ER is sick and needy, and AN being 4 years old, will have lots of "can I do this" that I need someone to help me attend to.

And because mum loves this little girl (more than she loves me, but that doesn't mean she doesn't love me too. muahahah!), she made her way over to our place, waited for AN to wake up, and then took her out to the library and to Popular to get some books for her to do 'school work' on. AN still LOVES to do school work. Her teacher packed her exercise books back for us to go through with her and she had been insisting the whole night that her teacher allowed her to bring those books back because she had to finish EVERY single exercise.

That is not possible because there are so many left to be done! Unless the teacher is not sane.

I let her do some of those exercises though. Better than have her stare at the 'box' (television) right?

ER is now resting, and with AN out of the house. and MR Liow at work, I'm resting. I should be sleeping coz I had practically no sleep last night. Poor feverish ER kept waking up and whining in discomfort. At one point, I even had to bring him out of the room to walk him before he woke AN up, at about 4 am.

But I should not sleep now because there's a baby shower in the afternoon (which is like, now).  I'm waiting for Mr Liow to come back, join them for a bit and then leave before we pass anything to the one old baby boy.

Aww....babies.....

AN has sticky mucus (which I'm having fun pulling out from her nose) but appears alright otherwise. She said: "green and sticky mucus means I'm recovering!". That was what I told her after reading about signs of recovery some months ago.

ER is not having fever by now, but still leaking mucus and coughing as a result of his stuffy nose.

From the kids' room, I heard Mr Liow coughing the whole night too. Have I also mentioned my father is also sick? Same symptoms.

Maen has an appointment with the vet at 3.30pm later. Dr Chua will not be in. The pharmacist (nurse? receptionist? assistant?) said she will not be able to tell who will be seeing Maen this afternoon when I asked. But it doesn't matter. I don't think her ear can wait for Dr Chua to be around :(

The Lord must have His reasons for sustaining me through both rounds of virus attacks. I may probably fall sick at the end of it, and fall even more sick than any of them in the family. But I'm thankful that being well allows me to fully care for all of them (except my father whom we do not stay with. He still brought me lunch yesterday despite being unwell himself. I know, I have very wonderful parents! But it took me many many years to see beyond rivalry with my brother for attention and always thinking they favor him).

ER will recover. It's Maen I'm worried about. She managed to wriggle her way out of her e-collar.

&*^$)&*#@)%$&@

Pray that it's nothing too serious :( She can still hear. This I'm sure, because she was the first to appear when I opened up their food bank for their breakfast, and she barked at the karang guni man who was such a nuisance early in the morning.

What went wrong....? :(

ER Running A Fever

Again...

He felt warm and I was right in my suspicion: thermometer showed 38.3°c.

His nose is leaking like a broken tap and eyes all puffy, red and teary :(

Oh no... Please, not again. Not THIS soon! He got well just a week ago!

Friday, March 11, 2011

Ear Inflamed

Thought I could go clean BM's ears while the koala bear slept.

And bad things do happen at the same time..... aghaargh!

Maen's right ear is inflamed with pink raw patches! How is that possible? I last cleaned their ears last Thurs before we left for M'sia and all 4 ears were fine!

ER leaking mucus whole night and day. Now this...hope it didn't infect too deep into her ears. Poor Maen...

Thank God vet avail tmr.

Arghhhhh!

E-collar for her tonight...now, where did we put it?

Edited: found it.

AN Enjoys Carrying ER

Adrielle thinks a big sister must be able to carry her little brother. And she starts practising.

ER is a Funny Boy

Everything about him makes me laugh. Even his cries sound funny sometimes.

Just a while ago, the little boy wasn't sleepy. He was in more mood to chat than sleep. Seeing that he didn't really need me yet, I turned to hug my big girl.

He's starting to need more attention these days. I have to be talking to him, maintaining eye contact,while doing so. Otherwise he wants to be either carried or at least be seated on my laps.

So, as I was saying, I hugged the sleeping AN and turned with my back to him. I heard him grumbling but did not turn back.

The next thing I know, I felt him touching me on my back. He managed to make a few flips to get to me and he had been grumbling as he flipped, but the moment I turned to look at him, he gave his signature silly grin, as if to say 'hi! I made my way here all by myself!'

So cute I felt like biting those cheeks of his. hehe.

He returns smiles very easily, much more so than AN. I think it's like what my SIL said of most second kids: they smile a lot. They smile even when they are crying. As least for now, he smiles back whenever we smile at him, even when he is in the midst of crying.

I should probably credit AN for her smiley little brother. She talked to him most and played with him lots when he was in my tummy and as he grew bigger inside, he started to respond to her voice!

He must be happy with this jie jie. Let's hope they don't fight much in future *cross fingers*
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Thursday, March 10, 2011

Round Two

I just blogged about the recovery of the humans and now it seems we're starting on round two -______-"

Mr Liow felt like a sore throat is coming since last evening, AN is starting to blow mucus into tissues again and coughing slightly, and ER has runny nose too.

:*(

Have I heard it from someone, that once kids go to school, they take turns to fall sick and it's almost as if they fall sick again even before they recover from the previous ?

Even my father is down.

Let's hope this one goes away faster than the previous.

Ready to Start Work

With ER almost turning 6 months now, I am entertaining thoughts about accepting assignments again. Had pushed away so many jobs as unwilling as I am :( ER, unlike AN who could drink from the bottle, needed me around. He's my koala bear.

A friend who is in the business of wedding planning, approached me. RIGHT TIME! I probably need to disappoint her the first few times (have already pointed out to her that I need time to pry my koala bear off my back, gradually) and once ER starts eating more (and drinking less), I should be more able to leave his side.

In fact, the moment he's less reliant on me, I need to touch up a bit on myself. I need a haircut, badly. I'm balding from the front (ARGH!!!!!) and to camouflage that, I need bangs. I can either cut them myself (since I did that on my own in Tucson, and snipped off part of my eyelashes at the same time coz I was looking up so my lashes got in the way of the scissors), or let the professionals do it. I think the professionals should do it this time because they may need to do more to hide my baldness.

And I'm also thinking of a rebond again. Not such a good idea though, because I'm already catching falling hair all day. Rebonding causes more hair to fall (does it? coz I dropped more hair each time after I rebonded my hair). 

And if possible, I want a hair colour. I can't remember the last time my hair wasn't black. I've not had a colour since I was expecting AN.....and that will be 4 years since I last coloured my hair.

I can't do any of that, not until the boy is slightly more independant.

The thought of going out with my MU and hair tools excites me :) 

I don't know how things will work out (thank God my readers are friends this time because some "Alicia-s" back 'there' will start hurling "what do you mean you don't know?" like as if I should be able to see my own future?) but I trust the Lord will lead me on my way.

Proverbs 3

5Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
6in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.a

Preparing for the FEEDING

AN's eating habit has improved greatly since school started. She mostly finishes what we give her now and even if she doesn't, she will ask for food shortly after. And even though she's still petite, she's less bony than before, and she's got that tiny little tummy to boast about now!

ER will be 6 months old in 10 days! It's time for semi solids again! It's "again" for me because I thought we just did that with AN, but no. It was more than 3 years ago! ER sure does look very interested in food. Each time he watches us eat, he watches intently, and his tongue starts traveling while he drools (he drools a lot more than AN used to, even in the absence of food).

To prepare for THE day, I got him rice cereals. AN started off with rice cereals too, before proceeding to pureed vegetables. I'm going to give him what I used to give AN. She's a vegetable lover, and I've been told many kids hate vegetables (my brother, for one, hated vegetables for as long as I can remember and he still doesn't take much of that, at age 31 now).

So, if giving pureed vegetables from the start was what helped AN enjoy eating the variety of vegetables now, I hope by doing this same thing of starting him on pureed vegetable, it will help ER enjoy eating vegetables for the rest of his life too.

Dark green leafy vegetables for iron, just what is essential now that they are taking less milk with the addition of food now. Plain porridge is not enough.

I'm no nutritionist though.

Got to do more research again (and thankfully we did not chuck our Superfoods For Baby out of sight).

This is going to be fun! Keeping my fingers crossed that ER will enjoy food more than AN does so that I don't have to go through that fussy eating stage all over again.

*cross my fingers*

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

AN Enjoys Cutting

Having been through terrible 2 and almost coming to the end of her 3s, I should say, terrible 2 really is not as terrible. The smarter they get, the better they are at bargaining and reasoning. Not that it's bad. It's just more challenging.

This was AN doing her lapbook at age 2years 5 months. I soooooo miss the slow, patient and sweet her...

Am going to show her this tonight. hehe.

Adrielle at 2 years 5 months old

Ooohhhh....how I miss her at that age....

My Big Baby

I never fail to be amazed by how fast time flies.

AN will be turning 4 years old in a month. I can recognise every part of her growth in photos we have of her: that taken when she was born, after her first shave, her first flip, her first semi solid meal, her first crawl, birthday, first independant step, in Tucson, on holidays elsewhere, activities, and the list continues.

If not for ER, we will not be able to actually FEEL her growth! It's easy to carry ER around because he fits into our arms, not AN. Her limbs dangle when we carry her. She's 1 metre tall now. She didn't FEEL that tall, heavy and big, till ER came.

Looking at my little girl in pictures, we can can clearly see how she has grown! That cute round face is slowly growing longer and leaner. What is never going to change, will be how beautiful she had been and will always be. Beauty lies in the eyes of her beholder. I'm sure you think the same of your juniors :)

It warms me each time we sit down to watch videos we took of her: from a cooing infant, to a blabbering toddler, to the witty preschooler that she now is. In fact, she can still remember most events that happened, even some dated as far back as when she was 2 years old.

I love our little princess. There are times she puts me to test, but I can't ask for anything more normal. She's learning to make choices, some of which do not go down well with us. Someday, she will improve at it.

This explains why we went on to have ER, and possibly stop at number 3. Life itself is an amazement, from this tiny 7mm dot in the womb, to a foetus with limbs that grow. From feeling kicks from within me, to holding my baby for the first time. From learning to breastfeed her, to learning to cope with her fussy eating habits. From watching her crawl, to watching her brake in time when she cycles. From listening to her baby talk, to conversing with her about what her future may look like.

I can't stop at just one. :)

True enough, AN does test my patience. Each time I wonder why she just can't obey, my conscience throws a question: "Aren't you just as stubborn?"

With children, I see myself better. I see my imperfections, and how merciful the Lord has been to me. In His anger, He could have struck me down. But not only did He not, He has a place waiting for me, a place in heaven that I do not deserve.

AN reflects areas about myself that I overlooked all the time.

Most of all, the innocence of my child leaves me much to learn from. Things one will understand more when one spends enough time with a child to see beyond kiddy tantrums and disobedience.

If you wonder why you have kids when all they do is upset you, take it from my friend: you are experiencing what life is really about. And it is good because you are experiencing life at a different level.

Enjoy life. I'm enjoying my big baby ;)