No matter how carefree I felt whenever I'm out of this house, the moment I step in, I become angry again.
I have not an ounce of patience or love and I don't actually care that I'm nonchalant.
Nobody cares about how I feel so why should I be sensitive and kind? I must protect myself and not let my guard down.
I must not start to soften. I'm not going to be taken advantage of. If I have to shout I will. I'm sick of trying to be gentle in speech and manners when that's just giving others convenience to take advantage of me.
No I'm not that stupid.
This environment is a constant reminder that the fittest survive. If you don't defend yourself, no one will defend you.
The kids? They'll learn.
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