Hair Affair

AN has a tangling affair with her long hair.

I was hoping to grow out her bangs so I can style her hair more but it proved to be a little uncomfortable for the 5 year old.

So I chopped off both front and back, in one snip.

The last time I cut the back, I couldn't get it right. When I finally did, it was short. Thank God she was too young to realise the difference.

This time, one snip and since it didn't appear uneven, I passed myself on this cut. I'll be nagged to death if I cut Rapunzel's hair too short.

I enjoy tying her hair but she only loves to let them flow...

Tired

It's time of the month for the second time.

sigh....

And I'm so extremely tired.

Had been feeling giddy past 2 mornings and couldn't get up to prepare AN for school. Good thing Mr Liow is always available to help (and it's funny when AN came home telling me: "Miss Sue asked if daddy tied my hair today. Lol!)

Along with giddiness, I have cramps, nausea, lethargy and I'm feeling so sleepy :( I had terrible cramps before my first pregnancy but after AN was born, my monthly affair was rather painless. The same body can experience such different symptoms.

I'm reading with ER in the room, hoping to get him to nap early (and wake up early). I need to lie down too.

Nap is actually too early at this hour coz he woke up at 9.30am. I gave up trying to wake him up earlier coz I was so tired myself. And I had plans to bring him to the library after breakfast.

Probably I will after his nap (and hopefully some light snacks).

If WE can wake up at 2pm, that will be perfect. Snack, and go out!

.......I feel so dead today. Weak and feverish...but no fever :(

Day 2: Puked

Milk in at 10am. No problems. Not much and I didn't dare push.

I gave stick carrot, apples, sausages and banana on a plate. He showed no interest. I pushed a piece of banana into his mouth at 1.30pm and he liked it. He didn't want to feed himself, so I did. Gave him tiny sized bites...and after about 3 pieces, he made a funny face and threw up.

:(

No sign of anything except milk from 10am.

I didn't get too upset this time. Just disappointed, but it's ok.

I'm just glad I didn't scare him by reacting negatively towards the throwing up.

Gave him 160mls of milk shortly after and he finished most of it.

AN Then and Now

We just collected AN's class photos again. It's been a year!

She has grown.

My princess...

Day 1: No Puke

It's hard to break out of his biological clock. Attempting to wake him at 8am was suicide, for me.

He dragged me back in to the room and laid down, chanting "men mem" as he sobbed pitifully. I gave in and nursed him.

He was up at 9.45am. I gave him fresh milk in a straw bottle, allowing him to reach for him at will. I heated up noodles from the dinner on Sun for myself. He wanted some, so I let him feed himself. We were at the coffee table and he was standing. Was messy but it's ok. He had a wee bit. Ok too.

As long as he's not stressed up at the sight of food.

I fed him milk which he drank a few spoonfuls of. Drank the remaining myself because it's been an hour or so at room temperature.

I offered cheese rings in a bowl shortly after, then cubes of cream cheese. He rejected both.

He didn't want my lunch, and I let him be. Before nap, I fed him 120mls of pediasure. He hungrily accepted but stopped at about 100mls.

He was super cranky when he woke up. In fact, he hasn't been his cheery self for weeks. He still plays and can be really adorable but the very uncooperative behaviour, in addition to his food hating campaign made it hard for me to get much done.

Dinner was at my mum's. He didn't want dinner either :(

I know I promised to keep cool but he had only 100 calories by evening. I can't help worrying by then. And he was super cranky. And super clingy. He would usually follow my mum to playground, and be really excited. And mum would help me shower him.

Not today. He wouldn't let me out of sight. Even at home, he would follow me to the restroom when he would usually be at ease playing, knowing mummy can't disappear from the toilet.

My sweet Mr Liow helped feed the last milk session and ER finished 160mls.

For once in days, he hasn't puked at all.

Total input: 260mls.

Praying that he'll be more comfy in the presence of food tomorrow...and that the Lord will hold me as I go through another day, watching my baby grow skinnier. I pray he'll not throw up tomorrow, that he'll get more than 260mls and most important, receive nutrients from whatever I offer.

"Now I realise the problem of breast feeding"

What a downright brainless discovery!

I know countless mums who do not breastfeed and have children who are clingy to them. Because THEY ARE THEIR MUMS! And some breastfed children who are independent.

She assumes my kids are so clingy because I nurse them and FINALLY, she found A problem with breastfeeding, since I started 5 years ago!

Good job. You finally found the cause of a natural bond between a mother and her children and blames it on breastfeeding!

You just brought your level of ignorance to a new high!

Congratulations!

And hurray to discovering this piece of important information at the mOst appropriate timing during which my son is hating food and announcing your great find!

You are beyond my amazement!

Waste of Her Time

We went out for a few hours to get some stuff done.

ER threw up milk for breakfast (I gave more after he was done), slept past lunch (argh! He can really sleep....) And threw up whatever tiny amount he had at 3pm. I gave him milk after that. By the time he finished at 5pm, I felt relieved..

Mr Liow went to fetch his mum after work. She came earlier today at 7pm to help watch over ER. There was still food for ER (because he didn't eat earlier), so I told his mum that she could feed him if she wanted.

She did and was giving him the very last spoonful when my mum and AN came back. Mum took AN to the library.

Apparently, according to his mum (who appeared really pissed that my mum and AN came back at the wrong time..), ER started crying when he saw his sister and threw everything up (AGAIN!)

As she recounted the scenario to me, she shut her eyes and looked away as a sign of displeasure, repeating: "They shouldn't have come back at that time. It wasn't easy to feed him. What a waste of my time...."

She was upset ER wasted her time. Upset that my mum brought AN back at the wrong time, causing him to throw up. And wasted her precious TV and sms time!

She didn't believe when we told her ER throws up easily. She assumes I do not 'force' him to eat.

Yeah! Force him lor. And conveniently blame my mum and AN. She insisted ER could have finished that last mouthful if they returned later.

Like as if my mum knew that was going to happen and brought AN just to make ER cry and puke.

It's never her fault. I'm not even blaming anyone and SHE had to point fingers. Who is she? She didn't even put in a single effort to care for him, only till recently when we had to be out with the baby once in a while for some matters.

ER threw up on her once and she was already so upset, to the extent of exclaiming that was a waste of her time.

Am not going to waste her precious time (idling). I feed my own son.